Day at gandhinagar club

Hi today evening my friend murugan invited me to gandhinagar club in Adyar.
We were gonna go swimming there!
Its a long long time since i swam.. the last time was in a district competition where i got a bronze. after that i've never swum. I started swimming early in LKG, i used to swim almost everyday in school. I lost touch because of studying for exams in the last two years...
Coming back we got there and signed in.Murugans mother came with us. She went away and came back later. Then we changed into swim suits... the last time i was in one i was mostly a kid.. now that im almost 18 it kinda felt awkward... but after i got into the water the uncomfortableness was gone. we swam for a long time... till we were exhausted... the pool was empty at first but it started crowding up after sometime.. there were girls! so we decided to call it a day and get out of the pool. Outside in the cafeteria murugans mom was waiting with cheese sandwhich and water melon juice. Yummy! Then we watched TV for sometime, ate ice cream and left. On the whole the thing was very enjoyable and i had a lovely time...Im waiting for murugan to invite me to the club again!

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh My life is ups and downs

Hello there...
My life is always ups and downs..
Ups and downs as i see them.. others may tell differently....
Its been like that in all aspects of life
take for eg. my entrance and board results- i was unfortunate enough to get all the bad results first.... or maybe they weren't but the first one i got was BITSAT- i got a mark way below than wat others who where with me in my classes had got... the mark was not good enuff for a good group even in goa...
with that my dreams of a good college started collapsing. cos i thought the rest of the results are also gonna be hopeless like this so wat am i going to do then?
moreover at home my father started of one of his pessismistic routines... saying i have missed the chances in life... i have to struggle harder and those who were with me will be flying high and all that crap....
even being complacement as i was, did no good... i was feeling hopeless... cos my father clearly stated that there will be no payment seats(coming soon- state of education in tn) so then wat will i do? will i even get a engineering degree?wats gonna happen to me? Am i going to be one of the million engineers who struggle to find a good job? Cant i get out of the rat race?MAybe i was wrong the whole time. maybe i thought too much abt myself
It was at this point that i hit an all time low...
If it was not for one person at that time, if i dint have that one person.. then I dont know wat i wud have done.....

then board results came... chem was a let down.. tnpcee was washed out with that... then thankfully aieee results came out the very next day
or i wud have had a tuff time... aieee was good results. got a good state rank.. good enough for compooter at NITT... whew! wat a relief! we are now going up the incline.... enjoyed my days for a while had a nice time...peace of mind! then came IIT results and amazingly I had managed a rank- a little less than 4000.. not much but still a JEE rank! wow! as it proved later on this will become the cause of more confusion later on... but anyway i was jolly... happy... bliss like days
tnpcee resutls went and came- was not at all bothered

then now councelling is approaching, i hit a wall again- hmm... i need to choose a branch and college... NIT is good i think.. but then the more i got to know abt it.. the less appealing it sounds
5 in a hostel room imagine that!! 5! omg that is so irritating...
then there is bachelor of design at IIT guwhati
the course is differnt than engineering has a lot of scope for creative work..kinda nice for me.
but wat job will i get afterwards i dont know
the guwhati campus is amazing- single room with balcony view, midst mountains there is scope for outdoor activites like trekking and climbing, great climate, great faculty everything better than NIT but i dont get cs there i get only Bdes. wat will I do afterwards? after Doing it if i cant find a job then im gone.. but the tag name IIT carries a lot of value.. i may be able to change my stream after first year or i dont know.... its frustrating kinda risky.... dont know if ican go ahead with it....
i need a job. a high paying and steady one.. only then i can say im ready for somethings later on...
so shud i go with the cs at NIT and forget abt IIT campus... Stuck inside with 5 in a room and not so good faculty.. oh boy wat do i do...

man now i dont like anything.. i dont like any of my choices!!!I dont want this! wat the hell!
there is a third option retry IIT next, year but i feel im too lazy for that. but if i study well i might get a good rank... wat do i do???Im on a down again
aaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrgh this is killing me!!

Abt love

Hey ever been in love?
Can someone describe it? What is it all abt?
Personally i dont like the word 'love' that much.. it sounds too mushy. I would prefer calling it something else... i donno wat though. Love is love. Does it exist in real life or only in the movies?
Or does it exist in real life because it exists in the movies... hmmm which is correct.
Love is as different as the ppl who experiance it. Each one is will have a description abt it.
Joy - agreed we are all happy when we are with our special person.
Pain - we are unhappy and pained when we are or cannot be with our special person.
Which is stronger the happiness or the unhappiness.
We seem to be especially bothered if the person whom we love is hurt, physically or mentally. more so if we are responsible.

Is love just a part of living things.
Can it be explained by the mere cemical action of harmones?
Is it nothing but biology,chemistry and maths?

Is it just nature? a mechanism programmed into our genes?natural instinct?
maybe so. maybe it is the way nature works... If so are we above it?
Are we above the call of nature? Us with all this technology that can do wonders?
Do u know which is the fastest computer in the world?
Blue Gene/L ? or is it NEC Earth Simulator?
wrong! Its the human brain!
Nothing can match a human brain...
All the computers with all their speed dont match upto the human brain.
No one can explain how the brain works. the capacities of the brain are unmeasurable....
So which is higher? nature or technology?

Its upto u to decide. as for love.... those who havent felt it dont know wat it is. those who have felt it also dont know wat it is...

Hi
My blog page was a little dull, so I spent the day sprucing it up with java and flash....
Will do more soon...
bye

Abt me

Hi there!
i completed my 12th this year. Being in India i have to go to college. so i wrote half dozen entrances and my board exams...
half dozen literally... i wonder when will the day come when we will be admitted into college based on a single evaluating system....
I mean wats the use of writing so many different exams? writing just one exam makes more sense doesn't it? I save the rest for my next blog...
ya so i wrote half a dozen exams and finally the results came out...
the period i've been thru can't be described... i mean the wait... for the results..the uncertainity...the confusion....the doubt....the shattered dreams.....whew! glad thats over!
it cant be described. u need to go thru it to understand....
According to most of my friends im supposed to one of the most laid back types u can find... a happy-go-lucky chap is wat they call me...
even me when confronted with this succumbed to the tension....
Neway as i was saying the results are out
and i've done well i think..
dont want to bore u with list of colleges and my results....dont want to think abt it now
see ya

Hi im starting a blog

Hallo world!
My name is Mani
Im from India. My life is the life of a middle class student in India. My views of life, my aspirations, my dreams, my friends, my failures and my life are gonna be put up here.


Now that the formal intro is over...
I started this blog basicaly cos im jobless right now
and will add stuff whenever i feel like.
Will tell u more abt me in the next blog!!
ciao